so far..

Assalamualaikum! banyak benda nak update =)

hmmmmm... how to start this..okey2..

first la kan.. nak cakap about people.

people around me. the truth or maybe not?

orang selalu cakap.. sekali tengok dah tahu orang tu baik ke tidak

bak kata pepatah, sekilas ikan di air sudah ku tahu jantan betina

tapi ada jugak orang cakap.. tak kenal maka tak cinta

dont judge a book by its cover.

so, macam mana? for me, i choose..kenal dulu.

my friend.. she is nice. we had a talked about something

and dia cakap sendiri with her own mouth

she go clubbing. so.. okay.... i didnt say anything

then she said "but i tak minum.i just go there to have fun"

and i asked her "fun like what?" she said "dance and chill with my friend"

again i asked her "laki?perempuan?" she said "both"

i didnt say anything. dengar apa dia cakap.

then she asked me "adda, nak pergi? i bawak u ok?"

i smiled and i said " i have this thing on me so i cannot go" -refer to hijjab

"ohhh..okey.." she replied then dia diam.

that moment is kinda awkward. but actually, i wanna know more

i wanna know what kind of life she's living now

cause for now.. i think she's kinda excellent in her studies

and the way she talk tak kasar. she is nice to everyone

and she is a muslim. - that is sad.

so.. i was thinking that- tak perlu kisah? but she is my friend

to be truth, i dont know how to deal with this kind of thing

after thinking and thinking... the best way is..

to talk about this thing and indirectly saying that it is wrong

bila dia cakap, dengar. then i will say 'u tak bosan ke? kan banyak kerja. nanti kelas esok mengantuk'.. she said 'i know. but its addictive.'

''ok fine.it is addictive or whatso ever. but ur parents wont be happy if they knw about this.think about them. their feelings. their hope.''

secondly...sikit2 cuba influence them to wear tudung =)

jumaat baju kurung with tudung.

'u, jumaat we wear baju kurung aite? u nak tudung tak? i pinjamkan.jom ramai2 jadi boria :D'

'ehhh..quite fun. nakkk.. i takde tudung. u pinjamkan eh..nak pakai style yuna la.'

okey..semua orang cakap orang sekarang pakai tudung sebab fesyen. true that.

tapi, bila fikir kan... orang2 yang tak bertudung.. diaorng kadang2 nak bertudung sebab style. tapi lama2, rasa ikhlas tu insyallah akan timbul kan? kalau makin ikhlaskan hati.. tak ada lagi dah tudung singkat2 kan? harap2 mcm tu laah.

so, all of us pakai baju kurung on friday.and they wear hijab as well. makes me happy =D

and another friend of mine. dia cakap

"adda, you know what...i ni jahat."

"jahat? like how?"

"i tak solat. i go clubbing."

"but u know your limit kan?"

"yes.i tak minum. and there's a distance with guys"

"insyallah, one day you boleh berubah. u tahu u ada salah kan. u know it just u dont know how to rectify your mistakes. u tahu u tak solat dan u tahu solat tu tiang agama kan."

"yes, i know all of it. but i dont know.... and her words tergantung kat situ

entah. i dont know how to help these people.

what i can say is...

" islam tu mudah. tak beban. solat 5waktu tak beban kalau jadi amalan."

"tp nak mulakan tu susah"

"sebab tu u kena kuat.lawan nafsu.mak i cakap, kalau hari dimulakan dengan solat subuh, insyallah 4waktu yang seterusnya tak tinggal"

" no one ajar i. i tak tahu"

"i tak tahu nak ajar. i tak pandai. kalau ada apa2, tell me alright. will try to help you"

Ya Allah.. macam mana nak bantu orang kalau diri sendiri belum sempurna. takut. takut sangat. Ya Allah.. bagilah kawan2ku petunjuk.

sungguh. sungguh aku takut.