I Miss every single thing

hye. complicated. that's the only word that can describe me now
i just want to cry. i am not sad. but i just need to release some burden
there's one time where i don't feel comfortable with my surrounding
that's my problem. i've been influenced with some people with that attitude
i still remember how cheerful i am when i was in primary school
secondary school.. well, i was naughty. but i started to hate things around me
and this things is being dragged till now.
not everything that i hate. i mean.. i dont know :(
that's why i said.its complicated. -.-''
i feel so burdened. everyone in that class compete
and trying to show how smart they are
i dont really like to speak up my mind
i can easily being freak out whenever the lecturer call my name
so yeah.. that's the thing that i need to change
be positive. yes. i miss the old old me
the primary school kid. that everyone trust.
dang~ adda.... adda..... wake up. face the world.
face the reality. you can do it.
focus. focus. yes. yes. i can do it.