Will I regret my desicion?

Assalamualaikum. Panda eyes.
I can't sleep last night.
been thinking a lot about going to uk
i don't know.. my heart is already there since last year
since i was doing my foundation
i've been preparing myself for so long..
i study like crazy everyday.
and now.. i can't even dream of going there anymore
really..i wanna cry :(
nita is in russia.. fathin is in ireland..
and zahira is leaving to aussie
i still remember how we made promise.
each of us study hard.. go on our own path..
come back and chill together.
but..i break the promise. im sorry
really..i am sorry :(