mood swing

hye hye hye. lately, i'm just so not in the mood
many things happened lately.
i just don't know why..but it makes me depressed
and i can't focused during econs exam.
it makes me feel bad to face my dad. sorry abah :((
i'm just so sorry. i cry at night when i think of it
it's not because of economics.. there's other things that makes me feel terrible
i trust them. i give my heart to them. whenever i heard this song "my all is in you"
i think of them.
but the word is just too harsh to swallow.
but still..it makes me think.. am i that bad?
am i that selfish? am i not a good friend? what have i done wrong?
that's what i've been thinking that makes me cry all day long
i won't say that they're the one to blame for my sadness..
but i put all the blame on myself for making them think such a word on me
i'm sorry :'(

and things that makes me down is.. im not smart. im not brilliant
i hope i'm perfect but im not. when it comes to study
i study like crazy and if i know it, i'll share if u asked me to.
but when i said i dont know, it means i really dont know
sorry, like i said i;m not that kind of smart people
and i'm not that smart in lying.

anyway and anyhow.. i just hope that i won't repeat any paper
i'm just too scared now especially econs
my mind was distracted during the exam. i don't even study. thanks lah